世上没有丑女人，只有懒女人
"There are no ugly women in the world, just lazy ones."
- Coco Chanel

So very unoriginal of me to say a quote that everyone knows by heart, but hey man, it is really true. Especially the way of viewing and living your life.

Probably it is just me, or rather, a small minority of people whom also have the "All or nothing" perspective of looking at stuffs. I personally feel that the quote is referring to the attitude and determination of achieving your goals regardless how big or superficial they are.
For me, I've been troubled by acne and sudden sensitive skin since somewhere last year, around April 2011. It started small at first, whiteheads that are almost transparent to the eye but you can just feel it every time you wash your face, and I reached my worst stage of skin troubles around the end of October 2011 (which was when I came back from Hongkong trip)..it was so bad and my skin was always in a combination of EITHER

1) Clogged pores, serious acne around cheeks area which entended its way to my jawline, fickle-minded T-zone that goes from peeling dry to very oily in a matter of an hour's time.
OR
2) Peeling & flaky dry skin around my problem areas (cheeks especially), tight skin around eye areas which takes more effort to even blink and noticeable lines around under eyes and lips.  Not to mention itchiness and the pain that comes with dry flaky skin.

It was hell.
It is double hell because I had to work and I had to put make up to cover it up. Before you say anything, I sell beauty products, skincare and cosmetics. Our brand is particularly famous for its base make up, meaning a really nice (looking) complexion. Hell, I can't even convince me to buy anything from myself. My self-esteem reached a new low and was really depressed and desperate. I was willing to try anything and everything.
I went for facials that made not much difference even after around 4 sessions (almost once every week for a month or so), the problems never really went away, it was always whiteheads, acne or scars from the extraction.
I went to see a doctor which is very famous for treating acne, and yes, he really helped quite a bit, I went there for 2 times (a period of 2 months), took his antibiotics & Acnotin  for a little more than a month before I stopped going back. Reason being, I do not want to create a reliance on antibiotics, which I heard that acne will return if you stopped it. Also the horror stories I have googled about Acnotin..read that it causes liver and kidney failure. By the way, my first visit to the doctor was downright humiliating. I've read on forums and there are mixed comments about the doctor, some said he was kind and some said he was mean at different periods of time (the forum thread is a few years old !) and I went there with a dejected mind with a open heart as what might happen during his consultation session..and little did I expect that even with the "warnings" I've gotten online, I was blew away by his professionalism. He was an ace jerk ! To his defence, I went there after work so I had full make up on. He looked at my face and made that tsk tsk tsk tsk annoying sound and ended with a "Jia lat" which means bloody shit in Hokkien. Then he stood up and leaned closer to me, forcing me to look up at him in full HD while pointing his face and went on his triumphant rant "Look at my face, so smooth..and then look at yours, that is because you apply what, foundation, bb cream, sunblock, this and that. That is why your face is like this.....jia lat.." He proceeds to shake his head. He was menacing and almost like a too-confident narcissist because despite his smooth skin I noticed that he had huge pores. 


I had to use pictures..

I had supplements all this while, whitening, collagen (I didn't know it wasn't vegan before I have taken for a week and already bought a month's supply.......I took it anyway...Don't Judge Me ! I was desperate and felt so bad for what I did.....bloody dim of me I know... !) , Spirulina enhanced biscuits and drinks.
I bought a beauty device and a brand new skincare set that should cost me around 1k together but I paid lesser because I was in luck there was an on-going promotion. It is pricey but I have never regretted purchasing this little saviour !



(it states that there are 9 benefits but some means the same thing so I'll summarize; 1) Diminish fine lines and lighten wrinkles 2) Improves skin elasticity and firmness 3) Reduce puffiness around the eye area  4) Brighten up skin and dark eye circles  5) Tighten pores  6) Aids shaping the face to be more chiseled)

It is Eternal Beauty Device by Elestyle which is a sub division from Elken, a direct sales company so to say. I was told that it solved people with worse skin conditions in a week ! I was skeptical but went ahead and tried it anyway....I have practically nothing more to lose. I felt in love with it right away. I bought it the day after ! Pior to going down to try the device I went for acne&whiteheads extraction (by the doctor) so my face was swollen and had lots of redness, which is very normal.... I tried out their skincare (facial foam, toner, moisturizer) followed by the device, my face felt smooth the first time in months (!) and bumps and the redness before was down by at least 50%. I am not even kidding ! I took pictures but they aren't with me... It normally takes me at least 2 days before most of my swelling goes down. I think I held that device on my face for around 30 minutes to the swollen areas particularly, but during normal days 10 minutes will be sufficient.
Using the device after my skincare really makes a difference, I feel it allows the products to penetrate into the surface better thus all those added benefits. I was told that it also kills bateria because of the stone material used on the massager's head, apparently it might be the case because it reduces swelling time. I love it most because it really tightens up the pores & it speeds up the healing process of any inflammation.

Sidenote: I went to the doctor for my second appointment for acne&whiteheads extraction, I went there bare-faced which earned me less insults, but being a regular to facials I find that the way he pops my pimples are slightly heavy-handed. Most of the doctors who treats acne problems will put the priority on eliminating acne first then treating the scars. Which I do not like because scars takes so much longer to heal than pimples that are being extracted in a correct way.

*****If you would like to try or purchase this device you could leave me a comment and we could arrange a date !But you must live in Singapore to try out.. Unless you have any friends with Elken you could approach them as well, I'm pretty sure they will be happy to assist(: But I would greatly appreciate it if you came to me because my post has helped you in any way(s) because it is direct sales and I would earn a small commission for every sales I obtain. But fear not, I know how irritating it is to meet a pushy salesperson and would hate to be one !*****

Then my skin got better. I saw significant progress within 2 weeks. Most of the acne are gone and it was smooth within 1 month. I followed my skincare regime for most of the days.
But life doesn't stop here, because my skin got better I took the easy way out and used those make-up-removing cleansing wipes. I was lazy, I neglected my device and got improper with skincare regime. Then the skin problem starts again, but not as serious as it was and was quickly controlled but never solved.

The last facial session was bad because my beautician must have used something too rich for my skin, those whiteheads she popped resurfaced in a matter of 2 days ! 

It took me long time and much contemplation (and many other failed methods) before I finally took the plunge and extracted a lot of these whiteheads myself. I look horrible but my skin feels clean now.. they probably might resurface again if I neglect my skincare regime. This goes back to Coco Chanel's quote. For the past few days I've been using mud masks that helps in whitening and drying out the skin, I bought a couple from SHILLS and I love it ! And I've been trying not to use anything that is too rich for my skin..I will try out Hazeline Snow again. Its a mattifying oil-free vanishing cream, which is weird because areas that will get oily gets somewhat less oily but areas that are dry are slightly moisturized. I loved this as a kid, awesome memories !

I was told by my beautician that I have oily skin. It sometimes peel though. I have slight sensitive skin because of acne but otherwise it isn't sensitive.

My advice to people facing similar problems:
Please do not pop your pimples/acne/whiteheads if you are not familiar or how to do it. Incorrect methods might cause scarring, inflammation and other consequences. I've learned my way through years of doing it incorrectly and I hope you do read up, do some research before doing anything !

Skincare advice for Acne-prone, Sensitive, Oily skin:
Do not use skincare that are too rich. Never use cream/oil-based moisturizers. Use only emulsion, gel/ gel cream, water-based moisturizers.
If skin is peeling and very sensitive, fill tap water in a small mist bottle and spray it to relieve any tension/ tightness of the skin, DO NOT USE MOISTURIZER or anything with any chemicals because it will sting ! Do not use commercial face mist because most of them contain alcohol which will dry the skin.
Splashing cold water on your face after bath will control oil production better because it shrink pores.

Make up advice:
Use a water-based/ non oily sunblock. Use a make up base. Try to use dry/powder-type foundation if possible.
Do not use tinted moisturizer, BB cream WITHOUT a make up base. Make up base must go before any tinted cosmetic product. 
Remember to blot any sebum on face before touching up/ powdering.

Hearsay that is good to follow nonetheless:
Do not eat peanuts.
Try to replace vegetable oil in your diet with other healthier types like olive oil.
Drink more water. Get enough sleep.
Drink Orange juice (:  I heard that not getting enough Vitamins causes bad skin and acne too.. so if you are looking for a rich source of Vitamins C then nothing is better than some orange juice ! Vitamins C brighten up the complexion and lighten up scars, they also make one more alert. I totally recommend Florida Natural's over others ! They are quite natural, not from concentrate and I find that they taste better than fresh orange juice !




Products I'd totally recommend:

Clarins White Plus HP Intensive Whitening Smoothing Serum
131$, 30ml


This lightens up the scars and helps to even out skintone, and is great if you want to become fairer !

Hazeline Snow
Less than 10$, 100g

This good old moisturizer is probably what your grandma, aunties & your mother used in the 90s. You also might have used it as a kid. It was amazing and still is ! There are still people who swear by this moisturizer over the variety we have today. Also can I say that the price is so right?!

RMK Recovery Gel
94$, 40g

This night moisturizer is lightweight and non-oily, very good for hydration and brightening up the skin and can be used on very sensitive skin without much irritation (subjective/based on personal experience) and skin feels soft and hydrated the next day because of its sealing effect from the formula combination.

RMK UV Face Protector
48$, 35g

Sunblock is very important especially when you have scars/ temporary scars from the squeezing of a zit. The part of discoloured skin is a new formation of the skin and tissues to aid in the healing process, which means that that area is thinner and is more susceptible to UV damage and melanin production. This is non-greasy, colourless, no residue water-based sunblock which I like.

Kose Peel Off Whitening Mask
35$, 75ml

A black peel off mask that brightens up the face and good for unclogging pores.

SHILLS Mud Mask Range
15$ - 25$, 100ml




It's very reasonably priced, why not just try it out? I bet you will love it !

Fancl White Advance Drink Ex (Intensive, faster results)
61.50$, 50ml x 10 bottles


Fancl White Advance Pills (Gradual results/ To maintain)
46.50$, 30-day supply

To speed up the process you could try Fancl supplements. They helped in lightening up the scars from within. I find that with continuous daily dosage of Orange Juice is very effective too..so either one will do, an excess of Vitamin C might cause side effects like Dirrhea, etc.

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To recall I've said that I agree with Chanel on her famous quote. "There are no ugly women in the world, just lazy ones." Because I believe that everything is linked, like a chain. And the world is round, it is pretty hard to believe that there are no real boundaries to this land. I am just 6 steps away from anyone on Earth.
 
It is a chain.
Bad skin, low confidence, isolation, social awkwardness, sadness, very sad, encouragement, positive attitude, hardwork, results, good skin, great confidence, over-confident, social awkwardness, isolation, sadness, very sad.
I also happen to believe I somewhat deserve an iPod classic.



“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” 
- Marilyn Monroe

Trust yourself, true.
Better things might happen, no guarantee.

Haha what a predictable post with seemingly deep but actual shallow content.
But I might be doing such similar posts in the future, general topics seem fun.

OMG PIXIE IS COMING TO SINGAPORE

And it is shit really because the tickets are SO HARD TO OBTAIN
You either win it at some contest that ends in another half hour which is shit
OR you will have to charge 6000$ to your Maybank credit card which is shit too

CONCERT PLEASE, CONCERT !

Close your eyes
And feel the stars
As they shine through your lids

Close your eyes
And feel the wind
As they breeze through your cheeks

Close your eyes
And feel the heat
As the sunshine warms your hair

Close your eyes
And feel the peace
As you beholden to the present
The future is still yours
The future is so bright !

HAHAH FAIL

I wrote some lyrics. It's shit. It's 3am. I only have a tune for chorus, mainly.

It's about first love and its heart break and a slight realization. I don't know, tell me what you think? To anyone that happens to chance on this?


//
//
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VOID
YOU FEEL VOID

That's sad.

Change is good.
For the better, everyone.
Good luck to you.

Magic app is magic. Magic made my skin flawless.

Hi journal,

Do you know things change? Actually no. Things do not change, humans do.
That is why I've grown a reliance on inanimate objects to cheer me up. And fortunately they do a pretty damn good job. That is till the well of wealth runs dry which is really a sad thing. Haha !
Okay, but seriously, I enjoy the company of my friends. Which is pretty great. I do hope that things do turn better, now that I have decided....I want to do good. I want to be better. That will make me free, of guilt, knowing that I did the best I could. I want to be free.



10:49 - 12:24


I never saw the point of lying.
I never saw the point of a lousy excuse.

You owe it to yourself to be the best that you can be, why settle when you deserve much more?

The future is bright, it has got to be.

Welcome back Frankmusik.
I miss your old music.







But he looks very suave here, Colette Carr is so cute !
Haha love the hair combing action. Cute cinematography.


Very impressed with the cinematographic and the scripting here.


Thank you Edward Goldner, you have ace visions in motion graphics.

Aren't you a special snowflake?


Well, I have made up my mind about a huge decision that I am going to take. 
I don't know if its right or not.
I should try.

By the way.....
Still love this song. Messy room heh....can't get it clean.



I look like this (◎-◎;)


I've mainly gone off contact lenses......haha. My skin is very dry and looks reddish now....I applied too much Oxy cream. I always get weird infection every now and then. Skin or eyes. Annoys the hell out of me.